Tuesday, January 11, 2005
finally got my blog done up- with the help of valerie's computer! *yesh-
anyway, 2004's over already. a real happening year for me- lost some frens, made more frens, just simply frens that make that simple difference in my insignificant life. anyway, before i rattle on into the contents of my wonderful date with my darlings, perhaps i'll like to do some statement broadcast out to the many people who have somehow left a print in my life for the year 2004.
well, it may seem little but i needed to tink about it before i could pen them down. yeah, believe me- it's tough. here goes:
regina: its been a great 2004 year for the both of us. well, we have gone through the gossips, singing session at kbox, and well- its been great talking it out, especially when the topic's about guys. race hard for your dreams, you can make it if u believe! *oinkz
m0usee: its really heartening to have such a fren + counsellor like you, and you're definitely one who will give her best advice to those who need them- like me! hope you find the guy of your dreams soon. consider the 'aeroplane guy'?
sylvia: 2004 was definitely the year which our frenship was put to the test- a bad experience for both of us, but i guess we made it through and have become better frens as well. considering anyone now? that someone on your mind now, is quite a catch. tink carefully yah?
xinying: 2004's been a fun-filled year- that's cause we became closer after being classmates for 2 years! don't worry about not being heard from others, we'll definitely hear you out! must takkaire of urself wor. now weather not good, will fall sick easily.
jesse, alan, jonathan, zheng wen: 2004 was tough for us- some lost something/someone, some found something/someone. but nevertheless, we all grew stronger and mature through the experiences set for us. let's rock on together brudders!
dawn, janice: 2004's been blessed to get to know these 2 fine ladies. both have taught me to look with a brighter prospective of life. its been great making frens with the both of you plus the fair exchange of secrets. miss ya both lots! wish ya both the best for the new year!
jemie: 2004's one year which i've made the alot of frens- and that definitely includes you. been great having you around- listening to my problems, sharing about different views and prospectives in life, etc. i'm sure you'll be able to find the girl of your dreams- pray hard!
lynnly: hey, sorry about everything. wanted to pass you a card/letter to you, to thank you and some other stuff. will pass you soon yeah? don't worry about anything- i love the cap, and i'm already wearing it.
alison: 2004 has brought us closer together somehow, and i simply miss those times we've had. i'm so very glad to have you as my little nu er and little piggy. all the very best for your o's this year and strive hard for it. i'm sure you'll do your best! don't give up so easily okie? you have us who care alot for you- coz we so love you! hmmm, will i be getting a son-in-law soon for the new year?
valerie: 2004's been a year which we had been reminding each other about our makan date- ma you ji, and i've definitely not forgotten it. let's have it some day soon yeah? study hard and strive for the best!
louis: 2004's been a year which we had gone through a rough tide together, but we grew stronger and mature in our own different way. soon it'll be time for you to enter ns- let's have fun before that happens yah! takkaire.
peksy dear: 2004 has definitely brought us closer together- makaning, gossiping, shopping, slacking, etc. its been a long year but i guess, we have both survived through it together and have become stronger! i'm definitely blessed to have you in my life- cause you have played such a significant role in mine! rock on darling and love ya lots!
jo-ann dear: 2004's been a busy year for you- having to study for your a's, been hard for you but you have strived hard and done well. have missed you so much in the year 2004, and now let's grow stronger together- the 3 dears! i'm so blessed to have you in my life, and i miss the times we had together- especially baking! rock on and love ya lots!
alright, its more or less up now. for those who i've missed out- don't worry! i haven't forgotten you!
anyway, back to my interesting and wonderful date i had with my darlings on saturday, 8th jan '05. well, we met up at city hall station and headed down to suntec's marche for lunch. we ordered lots of food and catched up alot on our lives individually. den it was time for the exchange of presents. i've finally gave them the necklaces which i've bought since last dec, and i can finally wear it as well! we hung out in marche for nearly 3 hours before we shopped around in suntec. it was raining quite badly and jo decided to buy an umbrella before we headed down to church for evening mass. jo was commissioned as she's helping her mummy this year for cathecism class. well, pek and i have decided to give it a miss now- pek dear's busy with work, while i'm just not too sure what i would like to do and wouldn't want to spend my time idling around in cathecism class when i'm supposed to be helping out, guess it isn't my calling. yeah, attended mass and was super fidgety. i guess clarissa's parents may be quite irritated with me for not paying attention in mass. oh well, sorry for the inattentiveness- but pardon me, i've not been for mass for at least half a year. so excuse me when i say that i'm not bothered, cause i guess i'm not. but well, due to some unforseen circumstances- i'll be going for mass next sunday onwards. ironic aye? well, let's just put it plainly- bro's gonna go for class, i'll go for mass, den maybe i'll just study in church till he ends class. oh well, 2005's here with new resolutions? oh well, let's just hope it'll turn out well.
alright, back to where i stopped. went over to heartland with pek dear and walked around. bought something for janice and had yoshi for dinner. met up with valerie and headed over to her place. wilfred's finally got his own sax now and its really beautiful. while i was using valerie's computer, the 2 girls were playing with make-up. yeah, and valerie got her hand in doing a full make-up on dear. well, i did something as well, and it was hilarious. i have totally no idea what's what and was asking valerie to explain its different functions, and if i'm not wrong- i played with the mascara. yeah, apparently it makes your lashes more prominent. we had fun and took loads of pictures. and we're planning a girls' night out (that's if we're free, if not- it'll be during dear's chalet) where we'll be doing make-up on each other. well, we had lots of fun together. missed those times we had together, but its the new year! we'll bond more this time round.
oh well, for the year 2004- it was a year where pain was hidden away to make the people around me happy, a year where internal struggles within myself for heavier, a year where depression took another step within myself, a year where hatred was hidden away and a mask kept rigid with a smile which wasn't there, it was a painful year.
but for the year 2004- it was also the year where i learnt to hide my sadness and pain so that the people around me need not worry, a year where i learnt to be opened with criticism placed towards me, a year where i learnt how to keep my frens instead of losing them, a year where i learnt to keep my expectations down-to-earth, a year where i experienced working life, a year where i made use of newly learnt self-helps to be a stronger person, it was also a year where i learnt alot.
in the whole, year 2004 has moulded me into a person whom i never knew. someone who is now learning to put herself before her heart, learning to forgive herself for the wrongs she had done and also learning to love herself for who she is. i guess, i'm learning to be sensible now. no more tantrums for me now, no more being poutty now, no more being difficult now. its been a great year and i want this year 2005 to be a better year. and i'm sure if i work for it, it'll definitely be a better year. oh wells, i'm so learning to love this life of mine. heh.
oh wells, to the many people out there. pardon me for having such a long blog this time. but i guess- you won't blame me now, will you? *giggles. i'm sure you won't. heh.
alright. i'm leaving now.
don't miss me too soon.
*peace*
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