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Sunday, May 29, 2005
tired tired tired.
just got back from camp. sch's bukit timah primary. wells, i would say that they're pretty the same as my EM1 kids over @ keming. it wasn't that bad afterall. just that, i'm a newbie :))
stayed @ labrador centre. nice environment. but it's quite rundown. sighs, reminds me of the old sjc. how i miss that old school of mine. heh :)) pretty fun with the kids thou.
they had abseiling on the first day. couldn't attempt it due to the time constraint. but was pretty cool looking @ my kids kick themselves down the wall. they wanted to do the flying fox but sadly, it was closed. had rock-climbing next. no chance to do as well. sighs. did pretty much alot of stuff on the second day. had knots and lashing, backwoodsman cooking- taught by jemie, since i know nuts about it.
sighs. after this camp- somehow my life seems REALLY boring. damn. will i ever have a chance to learn?? i wonder when.
be going off to m'sia on tues. better let lynn and gang know i can't make it. have to postpone it probably to tmr. sighs. have a briefing with all the coaches @ 1230 before leaving for seremban @ 1. sighs. where the hell is this place, don't ask me. i'm probably going to sleep through the journey. since i have an job interview @ 10. adam khoo's program- i am gifted, so are you. sighs. tired tired tired.
ahhhh!!!
should i go for the job interview?? sighs. if i do get the job, i won't be lazing around wasting my time and everyone's time. but if i do, if there are camps again- i probably can't do them or rather, if there are courses which i can have my virgin tryouts- how can i miss out!!!!
urgh!!!! how??? someone advice me!!!!
sighs. sometimes, i wonder if God ever notices me. yeah, everyone says that He's also watching over us. but i rather not believe. consider myself. i'm a big slacker, probably a big bum who's totally lost touch with spiritual life. what's the point in having Him with me when i probably don't feel it or acknowledge it?? sighs. i guess i'm really a waste in this community. sighs. being a lousy catholic sucks. yes, i'm not making the effort. but, nothing's paid off even if i do. oh sighs. my thinking is oh-so-WRONG!! but somehow, i feel the least belonging in church. imagine going to church and having to answer to everyone's question on ur disappearance and why the re-appearance, looking @ you with eyes carrying suspicion tt you really don't fit. sighs. it's a hypocritical world. but i have to live with it. some friends ask me to probably be a christian, since i don't REALLY fit in the world of catholics. sighs. i doubt i will. everything revolves around the word- religion. sighs.
i don't fit in.
i guess i need a rabbi's help. or probably a tutor to teach me the thinkings again.
sighs.
i need to read again. pick up that dusty bible and read. sighs.
where do i even start?? oh wells...
this sucks. big time.
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