am-`
michelle
black girl aka chocolate (:
28o81985
twenty-two
cafe del mar
beach captain
promiscuous
workaholic
alcoholic
shopaholic
procrastinator
party animal
beach bummer

lovee-`
my dearest sweethearts(:
my darling girlfriends (:
ah-bee (:
hugs&kisses
interlocked fingers
playing in the rain
sunrise&sunset
fireworks
star gazing
retail therapy
party therapy
food haven
speed rides
hard liquor, bubbly champagne
sweets!

wants-`
braids/cornrolls?
new phone
new watch
new hair makeover
sneakers/flats/heels/boots
skinny haviannas
newurbanmale clock
jacket/pullover/cardigan
the boyfriend's shirt
one more boyfriend's shirt
skinny belt
paul smith floral perfume
diesel perfume
calvin klein europhia perfume
calvin klein eternity perfume
dior fahrenheit 32 perfume
kenneth cole RSVP perfume
that ray bans shades
marc ecko E850361
full body massage&spa
lose 5kg
trip down to port dickson (:
photo with *him
a good holiday!
vehicle license

you-`
alinah` alison` joan` jo-ann` lynnly` pek geok` regina` nadiah` helly` song` linette` eunice` bala` dizzy` joleen` lays`

pump a heartbeat to me-`

Sunday, June 04, 2006
first and foremost, a big SORRY for to the many people who have given up knowing more of my life. l've been busy with lots of stuff.


work. family. him.


let's start with work. my dearest uncle has tendered his resignation. sighs. i'll be left alone, facing everything on my own with no one to nag at me already. i'm already beginning to miss him. no one to tell me off, no one to sit me down and shoot me in my guts till tears drop, no one to hold onto when i need someone badly, no one to exchange vulgarities and last but not the least, no one to be my brother and a mentor. i could still remember me at the office just before simplelife opened. he was a funny guy who was always stationed to be a "customer" at my group. i'll always be caught in a laughing fit when its my turn. don't ask me why but we never gotten a chance to role play together. heh. starting simplelife together was tiring, challenging but interesting. i could still remember our closest clique- andy, ila, ain and myself to be ever-so-close with uncle. we're always teasing uncle when he laments that he wants to leave. and we'll tell him that we'll leave when he leaves. wells, simplelife has brought about tonnes of memories. both good and bad. i can still remember that 1st staff that got "86" bcoz of a silly accident. i met many new friends from all sorts of walking life. i learnt lots of different stuff from different people, people who have gone through much more than me. i got a chance to be attached to the bar to be a bar-maid (: i got a chance to work at fish&co, both ways. i got a chance to work alongside with uncle. i got a chance to know this great gentleman- lambert, who treats me like his own (: i had a chance to fall for a simplelife guy, who brought me great joy but dousled it out when he fell for my little godsister. we're the bestest friends till now. i had a chance to fall for a fish&co guy who taught me to be strong even when we don't see each other that often. now by chance, i got to fall for the current guy who totally completes me. i miss having vanessa around. i miss having lays around. i miss having my girl, ila around. all the sweet memories are all shut in the 4 walls of simplelife. now, a new manager's gonna fill uncle's position. i'm not at all excited, i must lament. afterall, she didn't see baby simplelife grow. so what if she's that capable? oh wells, i shouldn't be that prejudiced against her. i haven't gotten a chance to work with her YET. sighs. i miss uncle.


how about him?


i miss him badly. lots of things happened that have drived a wedge between us. i guess he's holding it all back. here i am, doing my best to salvage it but i hear nothing from him at all. is it all gone too soon? i accept his past. i accept his present moment, present situation. i accept his future. i'm willing to trudge along with time. i'm willing to let days, weeks, months and years past. i'm doing everything i can to get the better half of him to react to my actions but i don't see any reaction from him. have the chemisty just died off? or is he just avoiding what he's frustrated over? i miss baby. ALOT! i've spent too many nights tearing over him that i don't even know why the tears fall now. where have he gone to? why have he disappeared just like that? am i really supposed to be non existent till everything's over? sighs. i want baby back. i'm emotionally scarred already. i wish to hide away from the whole world and just stop time at this instance. if only everything could be back to normal. him, back at my side. is that selfish? sighs.


i want u back. the memories of us are haunting me everynight.


i miss u.

[dreamt `]
at 7:48 PM