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Tuesday, September 04, 2007
life's complicated now.
i chose this path myself.
so whatever consequences, i'll handle it on my own.
if it ever backfires, i'll answer it on my own.
i don't wish to run away now.
its too late to run away from reality already.
whatever happened, happened with and for a reason.
i'll just have to learn it the hard-est way.
i never seem to NOT get into any sticky situation.
i never seem to NOT make myself get hurt.
sighs.
my hand hurts.
its probably a slight infection.
oh wells, an expected answer for doing something stupid.
stubborn.
rebellious.
i am who i am.
i wann to stay this way.
in the dark. yes, i know i'm being a fool.
the biggest fool, i must add.
but i've lost control already.
i've lost my head, my mind and my heart.
i wann to leave.
my body's willing; but not my heart and my mind.
my tears drop un-controllably.
i wann to turn my back away from the pain.
i wann to walk away and not let the tears be realised.
i wann you this way.
just let me be the biggest fool.
the biggest fool who knows that she's being fooled.
the biggest fool to continue being a fool.
the biggest fool to be manipulated foolishly.
the biggest fool who still wants to be treated as a fool.
the biggest fool who have fallen foolishly deep.
the biggest fool to still stay in that mess.
the biggest fool who deserves more than this trouble.
i just said- i AM the biggest fool.
so sue me; if you're unhappy.
tsk tsk.
let me stay?
in this foolishly naive world of mine.
*tears fall once again.
*it hurts THAT bad.
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