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28o81985
twenty-two
cafe del mar
beach captain
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workaholic
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shopaholic
procrastinator
party animal
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lovee-`
my dearest sweethearts(:
my darling girlfriends (:
ah-bee (:
hugs&kisses
interlocked fingers
playing in the rain
sunrise&sunset
fireworks
star gazing
retail therapy
party therapy
food haven
speed rides
hard liquor, bubbly champagne
sweets!
wants-`
braids/cornrolls?
new phone
new watch
new hair makeover
sneakers/flats/heels/boots
skinny haviannas
newurbanmale clock
jacket/pullover/cardigan
the boyfriend's shirt
one more boyfriend's shirt
skinny belt
paul smith floral perfume
diesel perfume
calvin klein europhia perfume
calvin klein eternity perfume
dior fahrenheit 32 perfume
kenneth cole RSVP perfume
that ray bans shades
marc ecko E850361
full body massage&spa
lose 5kg
trip down to port dickson (:
photo with *him
a good holiday!
vehicle license
you-`
alinah`
alison`
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pek geok`
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Monday, March 14, 2005
if two past lovers remain friends, they either never loved each other or they still do*did my gmp report with rossana online today. not bad, i must say. wells, the gmp report's finalised already. phew, one load off my back. now i'm left with gmp tutorial and aic lab report. sigh. when will it all end?
-next 4 weeks.
time is flying so fast now. sigh. don't feel anything in me now.
oh wells, tell me- does the quote above really mean what it states? if two past lovers are to remain as friends, they either never loved or they still do. somehow, it's disturbing. perhaps i'm thinking too much into it. but how not to think of it? sigh.
sometimes, i wish that i could turn back time.
back in secondary school, where i could live a rebellious life. one which no one had control of, and no one to bother me. the world was my battle ground and i had a share of it. but yet again, was i happy then? maybe. at least, it was all much better than loving once. perhaps, i loved too soon. that my friend, was my downfall. i guess due to my feigned ignorance to many stuff, i hurt lots of people in the enduring process. is that my downfall to relationships? perhaps. but what's that compared to having loved and having stabbed back by the very friend you once treasured? i ask of no forgiveness. that was the 'perfect' present i gave to someone who once loved me. people say retribution takes its wheel of fate. sigh. i guess, the retribution was built onto me- showing the pain someone had to carry before. now, i'm wondering how life should be. should i be the one who carries this pain? or should i be the one who bring upon the pain? sigh.
life stinks.
big time-
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