Tuesday, March 01, 2005
It's been some time now. Kind of miss some people out there. Perhaps, we haven't met up for a long time? Or perhaps, we haven't seen each other for ages? Somehow or other, have we forgotten our little friendship we once shared? What happened to that friendship we once hold dearly to? Did I let it go, or did you just left? Or vice versa?
Perhaps, I know the answer.
I created a space of my own and independently built on it. I doubted your advices and left you out of my little wonderful secret. You were just there. Waiting for me to look at you in the eye and tell you that you meant something to me. Perhaps, you waited too long. Maybe, that's why you left me. Perhaps, that's why you moved off on your own. Without me.
But, did you know your sudden departure left me crushed? You did. Perhaps, you never understood how important you were to me. Perhaps, you felt no longer significant to me. Or perhaps, you think that I've lost interest in you. Well, you are all wrong.
You
were important to me. You made me whole and made me smile. You made me one happy girl. You
were of high significance to me. You made me feel wanted. It was you who brought sunshine to my life. You made me feel important and cherished. I
did not lose interest in you. With each passing day, I feel loved and treasured. There is always something in you that made you interesting. Perhaps, it was your goofiness. Or perhaps, it's the way you amuses me.
You were all wrong. Wrong. Wrong.
How about you? Have you ever considered about me? Have you ever considered when you dashed the hopes of a girl who just wished for more sunshine in her life? Have you ever wondered what the girl had to go through? Have you ever wished that nothing was ever real?
I guess not.
Perhaps, you never saw the things that I saw. Maybe you never gave yourself a chance.
If given a chance, will you turn back time and make things right again? Will you ever do so?
Well, perhaps
I miss you still.
Well, since we're on the topic. Then a question posed.
Does love fades?
If you were to ask me, I guess the answer would be no. True love will never fade. If it does, then perhaps it's not love at the first place.
True love is not like any flower, which will wilt and fade away. True love will also not fade given the length of time it is put to the test.
If feelings were to fade, then it does not exist at all at the very first place. Love can withstand any obstacle. Love needs tonnes of understanding, compromises and patience to come far. To me, nothing ever changes. If there seems to be changes, it is in the nature of the things and people. It is just that we realized too late. They did not change. It is in them.
Many around us are waiting, waiting for their loved ones to come back to them.
Why do they choose to wait?
Because waiting is beautiful. Because there is a glimpse of hope. It is better than giving up forever and losing him/her forever. If you have someone you really love and cannot be with them due to any circumstances, you can hold on gently without any word of mouth. He or she can feel it, if they hold on to the same conviction as you. One day, you will be together with them again. One day, you will realize the person whom you have once forsaken is your true love. One day, your true love will return when it triumphs over the test of love. You will be loved.
I thought I was different.I thought I was a strong girl.But now, I admit I'm weak.I concede defeat.
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