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Friday, June 10, 2005
many happenings around my friends have stopped me in my tracks to ponder. problems with family, friends and relationships. are these just superficial problems??
somehow, it seems like everyone's attacked with these problems probably everyday in their life. my life's attacked by these problems too. wells, it seems as though no one can hide from these problems. but does anyone ever question why these problems exist??
well, i do. i'm very sure many people out there are in search of an answer as well. but perhaps, no one ever found the right answer. simply because, there isn't.
family members were supposed to share the same values same principles. the exact same values and principles that were passed down. if we were to share from the same bowl, why are there still cracks in between?? why are there still bad blood?? is there a need for cold war, violence to be shown OR showered upon the kids?? is that a healthy bringing up?? i question all the parents. but i doubt they ever have an answer for that. parents complain that kids do not stay with them, are not willing to share with them, are not willing to listen to them, etc. but i question the parents- don't you both behave the same way too? isn't that the behaviour you both display for your kids?? don't doubt your children. children learn and follow the ways of parents, be it physically or emotionally. haven't anyone ever thought if they've mentally scarred their kids?? i don't deny the fact that my family's a mess as well. but i guess, everyone's life is a total mess as well. so there's nothing more to share about.
relationships were meant for 2 people. 2 people who are truly in love with one another. it has to be a mutual feeling. there has to be communication, honesty and trust. there may be much more than these 3 simple words. but these words to me, are the most important and the most basic element to make a relationship happen. i've got many friends who got shattered after a relationship, but they still choose to love and care for that ex of theirs. why is that so? perhaps, she just loves him too much. or perhaps, he never saw her strong points? many people out there are searching for that soulmate. how many of us have actually neglected the many people who loves us dearly to look for someone who probably don't even exist? wells, i would admit i had. but it'll only take that person to leave to actually realise that you've lost a chance. or rather, you let the chance slip away from your own fingers. is hatred in your eyes when you see ur ex with a new girl/boy? does it burn so badly that you just had to turn away so that neither one saw the tears falling?? does it hurt so badly that you yearn for ur ex to come back to your heart once again? does it tear ur heart when you see ur ex in the arms of someone new? yes, i understand. you feel lonely all day through. the first thing in the morning, you wished to have him/her in ur arms; the last thing before you sleep, you wish to kiss him/her at their forehead and cuddle to sleep. the warmth just feels your whole heart, mind and body. but everything's all lost now. are you still going to wait for him/her to return? or are you going to get back up and show ur ex that you can live as well or much better without him/her? yes, it hurts. its pains alot. but the experience enriches you adn makes you a stronger person. live it through!! i've gone through hell and i know what it is like to be loved, cheated and yet still love the person. all you need is to let go of the guilt you hold, and start to love urself. let time heal the pain and hurt in ur heart.
i guess, God wants all of us to endure these pain to become a stronger person. i now believe that He never intends to hurt us in any ways. He's just putting obstacles in our lives to make it enriched with experiences. yes, it may hurt alot. but think about it this way, with these obstacles that stand in your way- you become a stronger person, a stronger one with the burning fighting spirit to keep it all going. if He never put obstacles in our lives, we'll probably be hiding in our shells and not even fight for ourselves.
when everything seems to be
unfair,
when all that you do
isn't appreciated,
i'll
take your hand,
wipe away your tears,
take you for a walk and tell you
everything will be fine.
we can
never understand-
joy till we feel
sorrow,
faith till we're
tested,
peace till we're faced with
conflicts,
trust till we're
betrayed,
and
love till it's
gone.
the
past is meant to be used as a
tool for the future.
bad experiences indeed make you
bitter,
but the
lessons learnt make you
better.
love isn't found by loving a perfect person,
but loving an imperfect person perfectly.
[
dreamt `]
at
2:08 PM
