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michelle
black girl aka chocolate (:
28o81985
twenty-two
cafe del mar
beach captain
promiscuous
workaholic
alcoholic
shopaholic
procrastinator
party animal
beach bummer
lovee-`
my dearest sweethearts(:
my darling girlfriends (:
ah-bee (:
hugs&kisses
interlocked fingers
playing in the rain
sunrise&sunset
fireworks
star gazing
retail therapy
party therapy
food haven
speed rides
hard liquor, bubbly champagne
sweets!
wants-`
braids/cornrolls?
new phone
new watch
new hair makeover
sneakers/flats/heels/boots
skinny haviannas
newurbanmale clock
jacket/pullover/cardigan
the boyfriend's shirt
one more boyfriend's shirt
skinny belt
paul smith floral perfume
diesel perfume
calvin klein europhia perfume
calvin klein eternity perfume
dior fahrenheit 32 perfume
kenneth cole RSVP perfume
that ray bans shades
marc ecko E850361
full body massage&spa
lose 5kg
trip down to port dickson (:
photo with *him
a good holiday!
vehicle license
you-`
alinah`
alison`
joan`
jo-ann`
lynnly`
pek geok`
regina`
nadiah`
helly`
song`
linette`
eunice`
bala`
dizzy`
joleen`
lays`
Saturday, November 26, 2005
aren't feeling well.
bad flu.
bad cough.
bad fever.
bad headache.
bad wheezing.
bad throat.
just bad, BaD, BAD!
ahhh!!!
will and lily made me go off early today. made me go see the doctor. sighs. i did, was a good girl. doctor gave me some really strong medicine to control my coughing and flu. after having a 4 hour nap, i'm finally feeling much better. probably, mummy's right. i'm overworked.
sighs. i've no idea myself.
i'm still thinking of him.
i've no idea how he is now. and yes, i'm worried sick. i'm not sure if he's even alive.
yes, it sounds really cranky but i've not heard him since the 17th. he promised not to disappear or ignore me de. now, i'm haven't got a clue what's wrong with him. i'm doing my best not to care, but not caring is the one hell of a hard task. my mind's just thinking and wondering if he's fine. wondering if he's safe and sound. wondering if he's healthy. wondering if he's eating and sleeping well. i just wish to know if he's in good hands.
asked korkor today if he had contacted him. korkor just shrugged and said perhaps something really happened to him. sighs. i'm afraid something happened to him as well. i hope it's not something bad, but i'm worried it might be too. sighs.
why won't you reply?
at least i know you're safe and in good hands.
everyone's worried for you.
what is it that you're afraid of?
what is it that you're not willing to talk about?
i'm tired emotionally, physically and mentally already. i don't wish to worry more for you now. but not hearing from you is getting at me. i'm angry at myself for not being able to get angry with you. i'm angry at myself for not being able to stop myself from caring for you. it's just hard not to care.
your last message to me was for me to take good care of myself.
what's happening to you?
did you do something stupid to yourself?
did you do something to yourself that has made you regret?
why did you ask me to take good care of myself?
after that message, you've disappeared till now. what's wrong with you? why wouldn't you let me know?
i'm afraid.
i'm afraid to lose.
i'm afraid to lose you.
i'm afraid to lose whatever you gave me.
i'm still holding on.
i'm still missing you.
please return.
i miss you, badly.
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