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michelle
black girl aka chocolate (:
28o81985
twenty-two
cafe del mar
beach captain
promiscuous
workaholic
alcoholic
shopaholic
procrastinator
party animal
beach bummer
lovee-`
my dearest sweethearts(:
my darling girlfriends (:
ah-bee (:
hugs&kisses
interlocked fingers
playing in the rain
sunrise&sunset
fireworks
star gazing
retail therapy
party therapy
food haven
speed rides
hard liquor, bubbly champagne
sweets!
wants-`
braids/cornrolls?
new phone
new watch
new hair makeover
sneakers/flats/heels/boots
skinny haviannas
newurbanmale clock
jacket/pullover/cardigan
the boyfriend's shirt
one more boyfriend's shirt
skinny belt
paul smith floral perfume
diesel perfume
calvin klein europhia perfume
calvin klein eternity perfume
dior fahrenheit 32 perfume
kenneth cole RSVP perfume
that ray bans shades
marc ecko E850361
full body massage&spa
lose 5kg
trip down to port dickson (:
photo with *him
a good holiday!
vehicle license
you-`
alinah`
alison`
joan`
jo-ann`
lynnly`
pek geok`
regina`
nadiah`
helly`
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Tuesday, December 06, 2005
i guess we all learn best when we go through a setback in our lives.
be it in our career, family, financial, relationships, etc.
for me?
i guess i'll always have to learn it through the hard way. i never seem to get my hands not tangled in prickly matters. especially when it matters with feelings of the heart.
am i wrong again this time round?
please don't tell me that i'm wrong once again.
i've played this silly game called love too many times- wrongly. when will i ever get this game right? am i not playing it according to the rules? am i not playing it fair?
or am i just not ready?
nevertheless, i've already fallen for someone.
perhaps, it's wrong again.
sighs.
i'm now in a dilemma.
i'm contemplating if i should look for him or just leave him as he is.
i'm in such a fix.
perhaps, i created this mess again.
sighs.
and yes, did i mention i'm sick again?
like what the fuck?
just last week, i was sick.
now this week, i'm sick again.
damn!
this time round, it's gastric flu. i've no idea what the hell that is. it's the first time i had this stupid illness. damn! it hurt like fuck and yes, it's been 4 years since i cried because of pain due to illness.
the last time i cried bcoz of pain, i was sent to the hospital and i was so afraid i had to go to the hospital that day. the pain was so intense. kept throwing up as well. was definitely different from why i ended up in the hospital 4 years ago. sighs.
anyways, am taking loads of medicine now. sighs.
i'm like a walking crap.
fuck!
i don't like the way i am now.
i miss him.
if only he's here with me.
sighs. if only i could make it known to the people around me.
i'm missing him.
and it has become my latest hobby.
sighs.
[
dreamt `]
at
6:43 PM
