am-`
michelle
black girl aka chocolate (:
28o81985
twenty-two
cafe del mar
beach captain
promiscuous
workaholic
alcoholic
shopaholic
procrastinator
party animal
beach bummer

lovee-`
my dearest sweethearts(:
my darling girlfriends (:
ah-bee (:
hugs&kisses
interlocked fingers
playing in the rain
sunrise&sunset
fireworks
star gazing
retail therapy
party therapy
food haven
speed rides
hard liquor, bubbly champagne
sweets!

wants-`
braids/cornrolls?
new phone
new watch
new hair makeover
sneakers/flats/heels/boots
skinny haviannas
newurbanmale clock
jacket/pullover/cardigan
the boyfriend's shirt
one more boyfriend's shirt
skinny belt
paul smith floral perfume
diesel perfume
calvin klein europhia perfume
calvin klein eternity perfume
dior fahrenheit 32 perfume
kenneth cole RSVP perfume
that ray bans shades
marc ecko E850361
full body massage&spa
lose 5kg
trip down to port dickson (:
photo with *him
a good holiday!
vehicle license

you-`
alinah` alison` joan` jo-ann` lynnly` pek geok` regina` nadiah` helly` song` linette` eunice` bala` dizzy` joleen` lays`

pump a heartbeat to me-`

Wednesday, May 10, 2006
didn't meet up with baby today. he's tied down with work. sighs. he still wants to work even when he's not feeling well. even his boss has told him not to work. sighs. i can't say nothing too. he's a workaholic, a major one too.


stayed home the whole day, watching my illegally downloaded movies and surfing around. bored, i must say! was supposed to meet alan this morning but i couldn't drag myself out of bed. stayed out till late with baby last night. he came over to pick me up after work. drove around and just enjoyed each other's company. being with baby's really sweet coz its where i really can be myself. i can sulk, be childlike or be wild with him. haha (:


sighs.


i wanna go shopping. but i'm like so broke!


when will i get my money back? i really don't wish to think of it going to charity. seriously! i'm just disappointed that i put my heart into it and gave in when he asked. now, he's back to being out of contact again. as usual! when will he ever find the initiative to return the stash? sighs.


baby says he'll pass me the cash instead of me still waiting for his reply. but i rather he return the cash himself. not just bcoz its my own stash but its what i call- R.E.S.P.O.N.S.I.B.I.L.I.T.Y. sighs. when he was down under, i was there for him. but now, he's back to his shell again. and it just sucks coz perhaps i was too naive. yes, i was too mesmerised. now, i have to suffer. financially. damn!


whatever.


gonna lie on bed, chill with sounding music that echos through my ears and wait till i fall asleep.


i miss baby. especially when he runs his hand through my hair when i fall asleep. i like it when he kiss the tip of my nose and my forehead. i like it when he holds my hand. i like it when he brings me to the beach, laugh at me when i wet my shoes and laugh at it all together. basically, he just makes me complete (:


making me fall head over heels over him more (n_n)

[dreamt `]
at 10:50 PM