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cafe del mar
beach captain
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alcoholic
shopaholic
procrastinator
party animal
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my dearest sweethearts(:
my darling girlfriends (:
ah-bee (:
hugs&kisses
interlocked fingers
playing in the rain
sunrise&sunset
fireworks
star gazing
retail therapy
party therapy
food haven
speed rides
hard liquor, bubbly champagne
sweets!
wants-`
braids/cornrolls?
new phone
new watch
new hair makeover
sneakers/flats/heels/boots
skinny haviannas
newurbanmale clock
jacket/pullover/cardigan
the boyfriend's shirt
one more boyfriend's shirt
skinny belt
paul smith floral perfume
diesel perfume
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calvin klein eternity perfume
dior fahrenheit 32 perfume
kenneth cole RSVP perfume
that ray bans shades
marc ecko E850361
full body massage&spa
lose 5kg
trip down to port dickson (:
photo with *him
a good holiday!
vehicle license
you-`
alinah`
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Friday, March 16, 2007
its been some time since i last logged in.
many things happened. unpleasant really. hurtful words were exchanged and physically, both hearts were torn in the midst of all the confusion.
my heart longs to feel the warmth and love again. but i guess, its difficult to pretend that nothing actually happened between us. i know the other party is willing to give love again, to start over again. but i guess, the heart's not willing at the moment. probably start afresh and try touching my heart again.
i know i've been very mean. but the heart hurts every time my eyes linger on him another second longer. i'm not willing to accept everything that is going between us. a fairytale i always thought it would be able to create was dashed by our own hands. he always said there was no fairytale in reality. yes, i was stubborn. i rather naively believed that there was a fairytale for us to create. but i guess, i was wrong.
now, he wants to create the fairytale i longed from the start. is it already all too late?
i'm lost and confused myself. i miss the attention i had from him before. now, its all different.
the world has changed. he's changed.
i've changed.
i guess the world is moving too fast for us to catch up. its best to leave the burden behind.
sighs. my heart's still willing. although, afraid to accept.
[
dreamt `]
at
3:28 PM
